In order to change the habit of the body, accustomed to
the mind and the vital, it was necessary to keep them away. Thus could it obey
only the higher consciousness. There is the natural tendency of the body living
all the while through catastrophes; but with the faith it has, the catastrophe
is transformed into a realization. But that is not the way. But now it prays with
all its intensity, and goes into a contemplation, of this wonderful Presence
that is everywhere. “The experience is repeated in all the details, in all the
domains, as a demonstration through fact. And … it is as though something is
reversed all of a sudden, and instead of seeing ugliness, falsehood, suffering
and all that, suddenly it lives in bliss. And all the things are the same,
nothing has moved, except the consciousness.” The experience has to be
translated materially. And then from one body it has to act upon other bodies. The
body has a feeling that it is imprisoned within something and it is that which
has to disappear. Although one body has its own antecedents, there is universal
connection among all the bodies. This is also true for the vital and the mental
parts. There is a faith, a promise that it is going to be sudden. It has also to
be discovered as to what extent the transformation of all is necessary for the
transformation of one body. “Considering the past, it would seem that a
formidable time is still needed for all to be ready to change... And yet, it is
almost a promise that.. there is going to be a sudden change.” The body has
simultaneously the experience of its fragility and also the sense of an
eternity, the two at the same time. When the body had the full sense of the
Presence, it asked how could there be the disorder, how at all. “Once this is
found out, it is immortality… The body has absolutely wonderful moments; it has
hours of agony, and all of a sudden, a wonderful moment. But that moment cannot
be explained.”
21 December
1968
Certainly the supramental consciousness acts, it has
already acted for a long time. It is because the body is accustomed—was
accustomed—to obeying the vital and particularly the mind, and therefore this
was in order to change its habit, so that it would obey only the higher consciousness.
It is for that, so that the thing would go faster. In people it is through the
mind and the vital that That acts, but I have said it was also more sure. As an
experience this is rather risky. But it increases the tempo considerably, for
normally one has to act upon the body through the other two, whereas in this way,
when the two are not there, That acts directly. That’s all. The procedure is
not recommended! People should not imagine that they should try it, it is not
recommended. One must take the necessary time. It was only because of the
mounting years... so that it would go quicker.
What is curious is that there are, as it were,
demonstrations of the natural tendency of the body (I suppose it is not the
same for all bodies: it depends upon how the body has been built, that is to
say, father, mother, antecedents, etc.) a demonstration of the body left to
itself. For example, this one has a kind of imagination (it is something
queer), a dramatic imagination: all the time it has the feeling that it is
living through catastrophes; and then, with the faith it always has, the
catastrophe is transformed into a realisation—absurd things like that. So for a
time, it is left to this imagination (this is what has happened these days) and
when it is completely tired of this stupid activity, it prays, yes, with all
its intensity, so that the thing may stop. Immediately, just that, hop! It
turns around straightaway and goes into a contemplation—not distant, but quite
close—of this wonderful Presence that is everywhere.
It is like this, it does not take time, there is no
preparation or anything; it is hop! hop! as though to show the stupidity of the
body. It is something altogether idiotic, like a demonstration through evidence
of the stupidity of the body left to itself, and then of this wonderful
Consciousness that comes, in which all that vanishes... like something which
has no consistency, no reality, and which vanishes. And like a proof that it is
not merely in the imagination, but that it is in the fact: proof of the power
so that all this... vain dream of life as it is (which has become for the
consciousness of this body something so frightful) can be changed into a
wonder, like this, simply by the reversal of the consciousness.
The experience is repeated in all the details, in all
the domains, as a demonstration through fact. And it is not a “long process” of
transformation, it is as though something is reversed all of a sudden, and
instead of seeing ugliness, falsehood, suffering and all that, suddenly it
lives in bliss. And all the things are the same, nothing has moved, except the
consciousness.
And so there remains (it is what lies in front, what is
probably coming): how is the experience to be translated materially? ... For
the body itself, it is quite evident: during, say, one hour, or two or three,
it suffered much, it was quite miserable
not a moral suffering, an altogether physical suffering), and then all
of a sudden, brrff! all gone!... The body apparently has remained the same in
its appearance, but in place of an inner disorder which makes it suffer, everything
is going well and there is a great peace, a great calm, and everything is going
well. But this, it is for one body—how does it act upon others? It begins to
notice the possibility in other consciousnesses. From the moral point of view
(that is to say, in respect to attitudes and character and reactions), it is
quite visible; even from the physical point of view sometimes: all of a sudden
something disappears—as we had the experience when Sri Aurobindo removed a pain
(as if a hand comes and takes away the pain): one wondered... “Ah! gone,
vanished, like that.” But it is not constant, not general, it is only to show
that it can be so, by the fact that it is so in one case or another, to show
that it can be like that.
One might say it in this way: the body has the feeling
that it is imprisoned within something—yes, imprisoned—imprisoned as though in
a box, but it sees through; it sees and it can also act (in a limited way)
through something which is still there and which must disappear. This
“something” gives the feeling of an imprisonment. How is it to disappear? That
I do not know yet.
One has to find the relation between the consciousness
in one body and the consciousness of all. And to what extent there is
dependence and to what extent there is independence, that is to say, up to what
point the body can be transformed in its consciousness (and as a result,
necessarily, in its appearance) without... without the transformation of all—up
to what point? And to what extent the transformation of all is necessary for
the transformation of one body. This remains to be discovered.
If one were to tell everything, it would take hours....
Yes, to what extent can an individual light act upon
that? ... There is the problem.... I do not know.
The vision is very clear, of the collective progress
(our field of experience is the earth) that has taken place upon earth; but considering
the past, it would seem that a formidable time is still needed for all to be
ready to change.... And yet, it is almost a promise that... there is going to
be a sudden change (which is translated in our consciousness as a “descent”, an
action that “happens”, something that was not acting till now and which has
begun to act—in our consciousness, it is translated in that way).
We shall see.
For the body itself, there is a growing experience,
that is to say, a more and more precise experience at the same time of its
fragility (extreme fragility: just a little movement could stop the present
existence), and at the same time, at the same time, simultaneously, the sense
of an eternity!—that there is an eternal existence. The two at the same time.
It is truly a period of transition!
Once or twice, when the body’s... what one might call
its agony to know, was very intense, when it had the full sense of the
Presence, this sense of the Presence everywhere, inside, everywhere, it asked
how (not even why, it had no such curiosity), how could there be the present disorder?
Well, when it was very intense, very intense, once or twice it had the feeling:
once this is found out, it is immortality. Then it begins thus to push, to push
in order to catch the secret, it has the feeling that it is going to be
found.... And then there is a kind of lull in the aspiration: “Peace, peace,
peace...” Yes, once or twice the impression: “Oh! It is about to be understood”
“understood”, that is to say, lived; it is not “understood” with the thought:
lived) and then... escape. And a Peace which comes down.
But the feeling: it will be tomorrow. But tomorrow,
which tomorrow? Not tomorrow according to our measure. We shall see.
But the experiences are innumerable, with all the
aspects. It would take hours and still one always has the feeling that the
word, well, falsifies something. It is no longer so simple, no longer so
beautiful, and no longer so clear. It becomes complicated.
The body has absolutely wonderful moments; it has hours
of agony. And all of a sudden, a wonderful moment. But that moment cannot be
explained.... If one is to judge the degree of growth by the proportion of
time, well... the wonderful moment lasts a few minutes, and there are hours of
agony. There are even hours of suffering. And then if one judged the proportion
accordingly, it is still very, very, very, extremely far away.... But what is
to be done? One has to go on, that is all.