1 January
1969
About the descent of what Mother later identified as
the superman consciousness (la conscience
du surhomme.)
In the night it came slowly and on waking up this
morning, there was as though a golden dawn, and the atmosphere was so light.
The body felt: “Well, it is truly, truly new.” A golden light, transparent
and... benevolent. “Benevolent” in the sense of a certainty—a harmonious
certainty. It was new. There you are. And when I say bonne année” to people, it is this which I pass on to them. And this
morning, I have passed my time like this, spontaneously, saying: bonne année, bonne année. So...
4 January
1969
On the first, something truly strange happened.... And
I was not the only one to feel it, some others also have felt it. It was just
after midnight, but I felt it at two o’clock and the others at four o’clock in
the morning. It was... last time I spoke to you a few words about it, but what
is surprising is that it had absolutely no correspondence at all to anything I
was expecting (I was expecting nothing), to other things which I had felt. It was
something very material, I mean it was very external—very external—and it was
luminous, with a golden light. It was very strong, very powerful; but even so,
its character was a smiling benevolence, a peaceful delight and a kind of
opening out into delight and light. And it was like a bonne année, like a greeting. It took me by surprise. It lasted,
for at least three hours I felt it. Afterwards I was no longer busy with it, I
do not know what happened. But I told you a word or two about it and I spoke of
it also to two or three persons: they all had felt it. That is to say, it was very material. They all had felt it,
like this, a kind of joy, but a joy friendly, powerful and... oh! very, very gentle,
very smiling, very benevolent.... I
do not know what it is. I do not know what it is, but it is a kind of
benevolence, therefore it was something very close to the human. And it was so
concrete, so concrete! as though it had a savour, so concrete it was.
Afterwards I did not occupy myself with it any more, except that I spoke to two
or three persons about it: all had felt it. Now, I do not know if it is mixed
or if... It has not departed; one does not feel as though the thing came in
order to go back.